Losing Drive

It seems that I'm beginning to lose interest in some of my daily activities.

Nihongo

I'm really having difficulties catching up.
I'm gradually losing focus, confidence and motivation.
Now I'm not even sure if I am really capable of passing.
I might have made a big mistake for choosing level 1.
Language is definitely not my area.

Project

It's not that I'm getting tired of being stuck with the same project.
But I'm starting to feel that I'm not getting anywhere with this.
I'm not sure until when I could continue doing these things.

Maybe it's just because so many people are leaving the company.
It causes a lot of stress and pressure to remaining people in the office.
I can't and won't hide the fact that I'm deeply affected by these changes.

As much as I wanted to do something about it, I can't.
People won't change because you told them to.
At this point, I can only change myself.
And hopefully, be able to make a difference.