Contemplate

con·tem·plate (kŏn'təm-plāt')

v., -plat·ed, -plat·ing, -plates. v.tr.

1. To look at attentively and thoughtfully.
2. To consider carefully and at length; meditate on or ponder: contemplated the problem from all sides; contemplated the mystery of God.
3. To have in mind as an intention or possibility: contemplate marriage; forced by the accident to contemplate retirement.

v.intr.

To ponder; meditate.

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Crossroads

Stopping halfway is more difficult & tiring than progressing towards reaching the final goal.

I bought a fortune cookie during my afternoon break and got this message. I'm still wondering if I made a good choice of accepting the AOTS offer. That would mean being stuck here for another year and a half. But that would also mean another learning and growing experience for me.

What are my goals anyway? That's a question I've been asking myself these past few weeks. Recently, I've been accidentally meeting people who either wants me to work for them or wants to offer me a supposedly better job. I'm not trying to find a better job, I'm not even applying for another job.

Ultimately, I just want to become a better person than I am right now. And just like The Secret mentioned, you really wouldn't know and understand the "how", the universe will eventually reveal this for you as you go along. I hope they're right.

I'm just grateful for having these opportunities coming to me. I guess I just have to take a single step at a time until I reach my destination, whatever and wherever that is.

Now, I just have to re-write my plans for the rest of the year.

Choice...

"Trust me, if you make this choice, you will not regret this, chances like these are not easy to find here in the Philippines."

Choices...

My 1st post for the year...

Things do not always go the way we wanted it to be...
Most of the time, it just won't no matter how hard you try.

At every failure, we face a question...
Whether to give up or try again.

How long can you keep on trying?
When do you know that it's time to give up?

Giving up does not seem to be bad at all...
It's a form of acceptance...
of defeat...
of weaknesses...
of mistakes...
of reality.