the missing piece...

Cebu ulit until May 6... daw...
I really doesn't matter now...
Wala pa namang plans soon...

But something seems to be missing...

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Save and Exit?

Been thinking about this lately...
I'm already "starting" to think of quitting my job,
before it finally consumes the remaining sanity in me.

I know that I'm being selfish to think this way...
but I would be stupid if I even allow things to continue,
and not being so happy about it.

It's not about the money, nor the position and...
not even the recognition nor opportunities.
It's not about the management and the people
that I'm working with.
It's not about the daily stress and pressure
that I'm receiving.

It's something that I myself can't explain,
because I just don't understand...
A part of me wants to stay despite of the
monotonous nature of my job.
And a part of me screams for difference, for change.

It's not that I can't see the positive things in this job.
In fact I do, not all people are given same opportunities
like me. That's why I really value this job.

But recently, it seems that I just lost all my motivations
to continue...

Tomorrow, I will be going to Baguio with my sisters
for a 3-day vacation.
Last monday, I was planning not to go with them anymore,
but if I don't it would probably be a suicide for me.

Hopefully, I will be able to regain some of my lost energy
in the next few days, even though I'm still going to work
during the vacation.

I don't like hurting people in any way,
So if in anyway I did hurt anybody in this post,
I'm apologizing in advance.

This is not about other people...
It's probably just me...

A difficult decision...

Getting really tired of this... What now?

A Cousin's Wedding

Tapos na yung isang agenda ko this week..

Just attended my cousin's wedding,
My first time to be part of an entourage,
Quite excited and nervous at the same time... :D

Also had a lot of things running through
my mind during the whole event...

The couple believed in "breaking traditions"
dahil dito, walang bouquet toss and garter...
instead nagkaroon ng parang trivia yung mga
single men about the couple, the winner of the
trivia will then have to choose any lady in the
hall para bigyan ng flowers... :)
According to them, they believed that
"men should be the one to pursue women..."
something like that... :P

I noticed something funny in the way the
MC's talk, college classmates kasi nila yun,
IT ang field nila, computer engineering ata,
what do you expect?

Dun sa trivia, answerable by "true" or "false" daw.
"Boolean"??? Bakit hindi na lang "yes" or "no"?
Pero kung iisipin mas tama naman talaga
na true (tama) or false(mali)... :P

Nung tinawag na yung mga single men,
They even mentioned "no attachments".
"attachments"? parang e-mail attachments?
bakit hindi na lang "committed"?

He he... maybe it's just me...
Maybe I'm just thinking too
much about work nowadays... :(

Going back to "breaking tradition" theme
Everytime the two MC's mentions this...
I knew there's a deeper thought...
deeper message in those words...
or probably, it's just me...
anyhow, it's not something that
I'm planning to discuss in here...

To the newly wed,
Eusebio Chua Yu and Grace Paungan Yu
Congratulations and good luck to the
road of married life ahead of you.

Some pictures from today...


Entrance ko... He he he... :D


Relatives ni Sebs...


Sebs and Grace...


Sebs and Grace with mga "abay"...


Sa labas ng Starbucks sa may Blue Wave...


No need to explain...


Same here...


Mga kapatid ko... not for sale...


Glasses... I'm not so good in composing...


Flowers sa table...


Makes no sense at all...


Bunso namin at yung daughter ng cousin ko...


Candle sa table...


A piece of the wedding cake...


Cheers...

3 out of 8

A short recap of my 2006 checklist...

1. Pumunta ng Japan
- Been there twice this year, and I'm not
planning to go back soon.

2. Mag-abay para sa kasal ng pinsan ko
- Kakatapos lang kanina.

3. Pumunta ng Davao
- Kailan kaya pwede?

4. Mag-ipon at mag-invest
- Malapit ng mareach yung minimum target,
huwag lang sanang ma-tempt na gumastos... :P

5. Mag-aral ng nihonggo
- Nag-start na last week, pero since babalik
na kami ng Cebu sa 17, mukhang mahihirapan
na akong makapag-focus... :(

6. Kumuha ng Linux Certification
- Malabo na to for the 1st half of the year... :(

7. Mamuhay ng mas marahan
- Still trying... :|

8. Maging mas close sa mga friends
- Still trying... :)

3 out of 8, still have plenty of time...

Patrick?

Hindi ko na dapat i-blo-blog ko,
pero since naulit... :D


Scene 1:
March 18, 2006...
Sa may Laundry Express

Matapos ma-sort and ma-list yung mga
laundry items ko...

Labandera: Ano pong name?
Me: Franklin
Labandera: Patrick?


Scene 2:
April 8, 2006...
Sa may Ystillo @ SM San Lazaro

Matapos ang mahabang explanation
sa gustong kong gupit...

Bading: Anong name mo?
Me: Franklin
Bading: Patrick?

Off the Record

Just want to make up with the lost
blog opportunities during my last Cebu BT...

Here are my random thoughts and states
of mind for the last 30 days...

I hate flattery... and I'm not good in
flattering myself... :)

Even if you have the strongest, fastest
ship ever built... with any sense of direction,
your ship is nothing more than a piece of junk... :P

I'm not good in breaking tradition... :(

Trust my character but never trust
my reputation... it's a warning... :P

After several months... I still feel lost
and nowhere to go... :|

Everything has a limitation...

It's too late just to realize that it was too late...

My ultimate question... Why???

Aside from these thoughts...

A significant event also happened...
Secrets revealed...

home again...

1st post in around 30 days...
I really miss this thing...

It really does a good job in relieving
me from my inner demons...

Let's just call it stress...
Although I can't really distinguish
if I'm stressed or not... :(

Btw, I would like to thank Roel for
the ride back home, and I'm sorry for
contributing to the cause of the flat tire... :D

I won't be staying in Manila for long,
I just have to fulfill some committments,
Get my overdue Christmas Vacation... :P
Yep, Christmas Vacation...
That's not a typo error.

A lot of things had happen in this recent
trip in Cebu...

Somehow, I'm starting to feel different
about most of the things and people around me...
Specially at work...

A friend told me that I'm just frustrated,
I don't really know if that's true,
Right now, I don't seem to understand
my feelings very well... :(

Hope that I'm not going to do anything
stupid in the coming days... :D